The Diary of an Unhappy Girl: Always Something More Important than Me

There's always something that comes up that's more important than me for my boyfriend.  Today I got all of my wisdom teeth pulled out which has always been a major phobia of mine (probably the only phobia that I have, actually).  He didn't wish me good luck or say "I hope it goes well" beforehand or ask me how it went when I called him.  Right after I got out of the surgery I called him and he said he'd come over in an hour.  3 hours later, after I texted him asking where he was, he said something has come up and he can't make it.  He never asked how the surgery went or how I felt.

The Diary of an Uhappy Girl: Waiting

I'm always waiting.  Waiting, waiting, waiting.  I really hate waiting.  My boyfriend can never get to spending time with me in a timely manner.  It's always 2 or 3 hours or more later than I'd like to.  It's like there's no compromise.  Ever.  Is the compromise that he's even coming to spend time with me?  It's hard being in a relationship where you're the only one who gives and is truly invested, while the other person is always one foot in, one foot out.

With him, something always comes up that must push back our time together.  Our time together can never be prioritized--it's just something to do when he hasn't got anything else to do. Many times I'm wonder if I'm just wasting my time loving someone with all my heart who may never truly commit to me or who can't convey his true feelings about how he feels about his future with me.

The Diary of an Unhappy Girl: Lonely

No one ever asks me to do anything.  If I don't initiate plans, I would be by myself all of the time.  If I want my boyfriend to spend time with me or even talk with me on the phone, I have to call him over and over and text him over and over or else he would completely forget.  I'm always an afterthought.  I always want to do so many things with him.  Even if he agrees to it, he will end up coming 3 or 4 hours late and then will be "too tired" or it's just too late or what have you.  I want to go out and go hiking or do anything but I have no one.